I have been putting off writing partly because I have been super busy with everything "holiday"...and partly cuz I was waiting for the "funk" to settle....and boy has it settled. Let me explain...Ever since Doobers came to us so unexpectedly we have been riding this wonderful ginormous wave, so strong and with so much energy and power I have never felt anything like it. It has brought me nothing but positive, happy feelings, but I have never forgotten we were on this wave, riding high above it all. Ruby just turned one, and with that comes alot of appointments, evaluations....and some realizations. Like I said...I have never forgotten about the wave, but suddenly I was feeling a bit out of control. Don't get me wrong, The Rubinator is still killin' it, but going to these appointments and filling in all the "not yet's", and, quite frankly, the "not even thinkin' about it's", when charting her development for all the doctors and nutritionist and therapists (Rubster has quite a large entourage)...It was a bit deflating. It was the first time I have felt disappointment since her birth...and it certainly was not a disappointment in our lil lady. The disappointment was in myself...and that's the worst because you actually have control of that. I kept thinking "if I had only worked with her longer on tummy time"..or "if I had only done more baby sit-ups".....If I had only done more she would be farther in her development. It sounds silly even now as I write it cuz I know my hubby and I provide a loving, engaging environment for her...but the feeling of helplessness when it comes to your kiddo is no bueno. You want to ensure she gets all the right opportunities to be the brightest star in the sky...all the while protecting her from the super nova's of the world who may not see her for her amazing beauty. I realized through my two week "feelin' the funk" period (it sounds like a fun party in the seventies..but it wasn't :)) that I have to ease up on myself a little....I need to let this wave take me wherever it is headed...fast or slow. The most important thing is lovin' that lil' lady with every fiber of my being....I've got that one covered..
Besides...if we had taken those silly tests and evaluations a mere two weeks later......
I mean it was like a light bulb turned on in that sweet lil' head of hers. Although I am pretty sure she was over "feelin' my funk" and thought she would give us a lil' teaser of what's ahead. She is truly motivating now to crawl forward, stack blocks, figure out what the heck all these crazy toys are suppose to do, she is even taking steps all by herself (holding on to fingers of course)....and my new fave......
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| goin' in for some lovin' with her bear! |
Those big wet kisses will snatch your heart up and take off runnin'....She isn't stingy with them either, which, as a Conwachta, hugs and kisses are fruitful..if not sometimes annoying. Bananas and Biscuit are especially excited that their advances are now reciprocated! Ha!!
Done with the funk...moving on to Christmas cheer!!
This was Ella Mae's first Christmas where Santa was BIG BUSINESS! I mean..seriously folks...it brought back all that excitement I felt for the big bearded man as well. We went to a holiday party and informed her that Santa was going to be there..we prepped her with the "well you know he likes you to sit on his lap and tell him what you want".....her response " I'm gonna tell him I love him and give him a big hug!" (there's that crazy Conwachta lovin again :)). That was what we were hoping was going to happen..but you never know what they will do when they actually get a glimpse of this big ol' jolly guy with a fake beard and red outfit.
Sure enough..we get there...she sees him.....there is that look of amazement in her eyes...pure wonderment.....she had one split second of hesitation...and them she marched her lil' "booty" right up there, sat on his lap, handed him her list and spouted off without hesitation.."I want a Flynn Ryder, castle for Tangled and a Prince barbie". It was all business...she gave him a big hug and was out!! Doobers just sat and stared at his beard while this was all going down.....
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| Doobs scopin' the beard....she is not convinced... |
Christmas morning was even cuter as she comes out to see her gifts by the fireplace and then proceeds to yell up the chimney.."THANK YOU SANTA!!"
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| Rubers with her fave cuz Autumn |
What amazing lil' ladies I have! Ella Mae got an easel from G-ma and G-pa..here is her first creation...
Pretty darn good..right?? I mean..I know I am biased and all...but the colors are all brushed on with intent....serious intent. My lil' Picasso....I will have to add that to the long list of ballerina, gymnast, professional trampoline jumper, softball player...and her newest...golfer... The hubby scored her some new clubs at the Salvation Army (in a pink bag of course) and she's already got a swing like Tiger...ok..I may be exaggerating a little....
She also created her first gingerbread house with the culde crew.....also, in my opinion, a masterpiece...
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| Culde crew luvin on Culde Santa.. |
Anywho...hope everyone had a rockin' Christmas!! We sure did.. and we'll just keep ridin' the wave until it inevitably comes crashin' to shore....but hey...the beach ain't a bad spot to hang for a bit... and when we are ready...we will paddle back out....
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| Huggin' it out with Santa..again. |
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